Week 4, day 5

Still sniffly and coughing (not so much sore throat anymore) did a 60 min open class and found it too easy compared to Beth’s 60 min of hell last night.

Feeling stronger but getting so hungry easily again. Not sure if it’s just because the lack of discipline or just mental temptations / craving.




Week 1 , Day 4

Shockingly, I’ve failed at maintaining a journaling practice for the last 3 days. Ignoring all the excuses/justification that’s just more wasted energy, I’ll just start today.

I joined this programme as an attempt to get myself back into a physical routine after all my injuries. Ironically, I promptly injured myself yesterday at tabata class.

Reading the book helped me realise that most of my injuries are self-inflicted, my insecurity with “how weak” my body is and constantly comparing myself to others. This results in me being unable to learn to surrender, to pace myself and hence the multitude of injuries. The truth is, I believe so strongly that I am weak and incapable that I am systemically sabotaging myself but refusing to go at a slower pace. This is a thought process that even as hard as it is, I would want to dismantle over the course of the next 40 days. 

Injuries are just a sign to slowdown

Injured my other knee, finally found a physio that figured out what’s wrong and is brutal enough to give me really painful exercises.

Started silks/Lyra term tonight and really loving it, I’ve never had so much fun in awhile.

Climbing is becoming a chore, although it’s mostly because of my own competitive nature and inability to forgive myself when I have been sick, injured and still injured. That’s something I need to work on.

Looking at moving in with my partner, so we can give our beautiful cat a loving forever home. I have never met someone as perfect for me as he is. We have decided to get each other promise rings and I can’t wait till we have our own little place together.

And how can I not love someone whom appreciates the beauty in the old, and delights at each new vintage dress that I get. :)

Need to stick to my clean eating diet :(

(via teachhealth)


This post isn’t so much about weight loss, but about being true to yourself. When I was eighteen (picture on the left) I was extremely influenced by what society told me I had to do to be “beautiful”. I spray tanned and wore “natural” make up. I tried to wear what was in style despite none of it really fitting me properly. I never felt comfortable in my body or myself as a person because I wasn’t being true to what I found beautiful. I was dreaming of being a pinup girl 4 years before the photo on the left was taken. I kind of saw it as this amazing thing I could never do because I was too fat or not good enough or didn’t have the “right body”. Fast forward 6 years and I’m a different person. I’ve become what I always saw as beautiful. I found the courage to wear what I like and present myself the way I want to, regardless of anyone else’s opinion and it was the best decision I’ve ever made. I’m free, I’m happy, I’m confident and I wish I had done it all those years ago so I wouldn’t have spent so long depressed and unhappy about myself. Be who YOU want to be. Be the person you dream of being. Don’t let anyone hold you back. Your happiness is in your hands!! #missi #selfconfidence #selflove


Aly on Double Fisted V6 at So Mo

(via laurenlifts)

1. There’s a reason schools teach Shakespeare instead of John Green; you make your own life, it’s not written in the stars, waiting to start until you find that person with the perfect smile

2. People are a hell of a lot smart than you think. Shut your mouth, stop thinking you know everything, and listen.

3. Getting close and being vulnerable is scary as hell, But you know what else it is? Worth it.

4. Reason really is the doctor to love.

5. The moment you feel your happiness being dictated by another person, take a break from them.

6. Take a step back and look around, you have more friends than you think.

7. Growing up is going to happen and it’s going to be tough. Just stay close to those around you, you’re all in it together.

8. If you’re still checking their Facebook/Instagram/tumblr, you’re never going to get over them.

9. Everything seems worse in the morning. Don’t fall for it, it’s deceiving.

10. No need to be so intense all the time. People get tired of swimming in the deep end, sometimes they need a break in the shallow part of the pool.

11. Stop avoiding everything. Get out of bed, get dressed, go to school, go to work. It sucks at first but it’s part of the healing process.

12. If the person makes you feel like shit and you still go back to them, it’s an abusive relationship.

13. Headphones are great, but listen to music aloud every once in a while. Sometimes you need to scream a song so everyone can hear you.

14. Boundaries are a must.

15. You can be a caring person, but you need to be happy with yourself before you try to make others happy.

16. Try and understand other’s intentions and situation before you get angry with them.

17. Tough love is necessary sometimes.

18. You can’t fix people no matter how hard you try. Get this engrained in your mind.

19. Surround yourself with people who will love and support you.

20. Loneliness is lethal and makes you have a distorted view of things.

21. No one hates you more than you hate yourself. Stop being your own enemy.

22. Someone can only hurt your feelings if you allow them to.

23. Getting your shit back in order is five times as hard as it is to mess it all up.

24. Listen to your parent’s advice.

25. Be open to anything and everything. Life isn’t fun when you’re a closed book.

26. Talking about your problems is great, but there comes a point when talking about it becomes dwelling on the past and it drains everyone around you. Know when you’ve hit this point.

27. A lot of people don’t like their shit showing. More people than you know are going through hard times.

28. Distract yourself.

29. Don’t be so easily swayed, a lot of claims out there are not true.

30. Some seasons of your life are harder than others. This too shall pass.

— 30 Things I Learned During the 30 Worst Days of my Life: November 2013 (via confused-and-misunderstood)

(via prettyandfit)